Saturday, October 01, 2005

Destiny

That title may be a bit dramatic, but what else am I to make of discovering (via Astrocartography) that Guatemala is a power place for me.......that all the inherent potential of my birthchart, which does not in any way come to prominence where I've lived for the last 65 years, is enhanced in Guatemala. It is described as a place of perhaps too much power, i.e. more than one can handle, however what have I been talking about but the desire for MORE, for a place where I can put my passion and intensity.
Of course, confronted with that, my tendency is to feel "whoops!" and want to run and hide.
But that's such a small part of me.
And I know no potential can manifest without my energy behind it.
So I just look forward to my trip there and to feeling what that energy might be like. Seeing if I FEEL something strong about that place, that area of the world. Strong enough to leave behind my current life, if only for a few years - which the reading says I will struggle with.
Other things it suggests will come up: feelings of loneliness (I never thought of that - :-), struggles with persons in authority, my own power issues, alienation, being seen as an outsider, and upstart, and conversely the savior or answer to a dream (this more in Africa, than Guate.) Danger - though that influence is greater somewhere near, but not in Antigua (I need to find out specifically where.)

So I ordered a reading for Ndola, Zambia, too..........the other place I feel so drawn to, tho mostly because it's the only place I know any way to GET to Africa (other than the local African dance class instructor, and I keep forgetting that that's why I want to start that class again.) And that place has no powerful influences for me, but describes a lot of things that I would seem very likely to feel and experience while I was there.
Just by chance I did a locational chart, myself, for Mali, and once again, a power place for me!
This is fairly easily achieved because I have a fixed T-square in my chart (3 planets separated by approximately 90 degrees) so there are several locations around the world where the angles of the place might coincide in one way or another with the angles of my T-square. But at any rate, Kansas (my birthplace), Guatemala, and Mali are 3 of these. And in Mali, of course, there would be French, and the music!! And the Dogon peoples.

Well - in many ways that is all fantasy...........(and the Ndola reading spoke of fantasies of finding ones roots, and of finding a "pure" culture)........but for me it affirmed that when you dream of a place it is because it is dreaming of you.